My need to put on a dress and play with makeup waxes and wanes. I think I was trannied out after Sparkle and then LFF. Then I had a couple of weeks off work. I am beginning to think my urge is linked to stress as well as many other things too.
It hasn’t gone all together, I was putting some clothes away after washing them and I just felt better putting an outfit on and doing the usual things around the house.
Now after a few years of being ‘out’ to my wife I don’t feel the frustration and guilt I used to. I am more relaxed in general.
One of the things I have realized is the fact that I get mild depression. It’s took me all these years to come to this conclusion. When things get dark I struggle to get to work, I have no energy and it seems like a lot of days I waste away not being able to do anything much.
Then there are the highs, some days I am full of energy and bounce and feeling really happy. So may be the happiness and my urge to dress have some form of cycle?
That was a bit of a ramble. Maybe my urge to write a blog is part of this cycle ?